Last Blog Update: Wednesday!

Thursday: Met Huishan, Praba and Michelle for Couples Retreat! (: (: Lunched and then met Arunan and Matthew before Arunan's enlistment which was Friday! Met my family afterwards at Paragon for shopping! Played Clue-Do at home for the first time! With my brother!

Friday: Had OCIP meeting in the morning with Nette, Jas and Guan Sen. After that went home to clean up my room! Followed my dad to pick up some furnitures and then PARTAY-ed at Hashir's till about 1!

Saturday: Helped my parents the entire day in the office with packing and my mum with groceries, to prepare for the BBQ at home. Went to meet the SB10 class peeps at Orchard (YAY NICOLE'S HOME) Hang around, talk talk talk, and Nicole & Sam sent me home!!! Wheee (: (:

Nic: hope u find ur SHOE BAG

I HAVENT PACKED MY BAG AND THE TRIPS TMR AT 2!!! AHHHH!!!! I STILL NEED TO BUY THINGS!!!!

GOOD NIGHT AND SEE YOU IN 10 DAYS, WORLD!!!!

Listening to the Lantern Dance song. It's so peaceful and beautiful.

TIME-WARP: I really miss performing on stage. I have half the mind to join some performance arts CCA or maybe even request to perform in AC as an alumnus (though I doubt they'd need me). Well, with that, then 'Plan: Fail M1' would go well on the way. Let's try something less morbid shall we.

I remembered how I wanted so much to do H2 Theatre Studies & Drama so badly but my mum was like, noooooo. Well, it's all in the past.

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Went for Lunch, Movie, Shopping with Shauntel.

Met Nathan Hartono (who evidently took some time to realise who I was) and Tien (w/ Errol) at Cathay. The shops there are super cool. Not worth the purchases but definitely worth seeing! It was like visiting Haji Lane except it was all air-conditioned. Watched New Moon. It's not as bad as everyone says it is.

At least I did something yesterday. (:

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Was talking to Jon Cheng yesterday online and he was telling me how important it is to start thinking what you wanna do.

Ok, I'm just gonna do some friends a favour so I'm gonna explain the residency system over here.

You'll be grouped into 2 separate groups upon Graduation (actually even before Graduation):

Group 1 (most people go here, probably due to demand):

• Internal Medicine (comprising subpecialties like Geriatrics, Oncology, Infectious Diseases, Endocrinology and Haematology)
• General Surgery
• Paediatrics
• A&E Department

Group 2 (the more specialised areas of Medicine):

e.g. anaesthesiology, orthopaedics, ENT, opthalmology.

Oh, and if you choose to be a GP/Family Physician, you'll be in group 2 as well.

In group 1, you go into Residency Year 1 (R1) directly after M5, and you start training immediately. Training may take up to 3 or 4 years for the stem (ie general surgery, internal med, a&e and paeds), and 3-4 more years in the subspecialties (eg oncology? endo? oncosurgery?) Protected time during your residency years.... apparently.

In group 2, you start off one year of housemanship directly after M5, after which you go for an interview for whatever you want. Same 8 years of training.

Basically, if you got shortlisted for one interview but don't get it, you're screwed for the year cos you'll be doing nothing.

Damn hungry, I'm gonna eat breakfast. Gonna meet Praba, Huishan and Michelle in a bit. (:

it's over

I need to learn how to sit myself down without doing anything and just study study study study study study study study.

And at the same time be an enriched child and do all sorts of extra-curricular stuff. And at the same time be able to party and have fun.

I'm so amazed by my counterparts. Maybe it's how I'm leading my life. Sucks.

Played the Game of Life today with my family which was damn long. Played for like 3 hours. But fun la. (:

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Life is such an abstract idea. How would one define it? By purpose, actions, intent or thoughts? Or something greater than that?

But humans, we are more often than not, influenced by our own expectations of life. When we fall short of this, we get upset, give up and wish for other greater things. And we forsake all good.

I'm a victim.

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CA on Monday. How?

speechless.

I have never webcasted so much and so effectively.

Haha, I have officially completed and (GOODNESS ME), understood blood. The haemostasis isn't so bad after all if you listened to lectures in slow-mo. So one Physio topic down!

i did Embryology and Histology yesterday! And finished Webcasting for Autonomic like, JUST! Prof Ng's lecture is so distracting and ANNOYING. And him talking about the Ghost of Wati wasn't helping especially at 1 in the morning. On the eve of a Friday. But yay! I've completed the little dribs and drabs and I'm satisfied 'cos they actually internalised! I'm getting better at having a 'no life'. (:

After all this shit, I'm gonna just dive into cases. That is, after a cover of Renal which I'm still pretty deficient in.

Geez, I'm talking about studies in my blog.

I was in the library today when I got a message from Darren asking whether I'm free this weekend and I was like 'NOOOOOO I GOT EXAM ON MONDAY'. This is sooooo not me. I never reject these kinda stuff. Not even if my exam was going to be five minutes later. Sian.

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I was ON TIME for my tutorial this morning! (: (: When Gloria Cheng saw me outside LT today, she went 'Shariff, you're early today!' Well, it's never too late to start!

Clinicals today was fun, though I had to admit I was gonna sleep anytime soon while listening to Dr Loh. I think clinicals are quite interesting 'cos they actually help to take ur mind off the theoretical aspects of Medicine and like hey, it is meaningful and keeps me going, I guess?

Met Weijie to take some Haemo notes. (which I gotta admit, I haven't read yet)

It's so sad how we are the only peeps in NUS who are still studying. The Science Library was virtually a Medical Library today, infested with all the Medical dudes and dudettes. (lifted from Ernest's vocabulary) I borrowed Silverthorn like four times today but you know what? i didn't use it at all. I kept thinking 'Hmmm, maybe I'll use it later.' but NOPE. Ended up bringing it home but it's 2 o'clock so no way am I gonna read that now. Well, I'm using it as a motivation to go school early tomorrow morning! (Dhilshad's Idea) Just hope I'm not late or I'll get FINED AGAIN.

3 more days to CA2. (and I really hope it turns out better than CA1) It's so late, I gotta sleep. But ARGH, the Redbull (thanks to Samuel Chong for recommending it to 'CURE' my short attention span) Now I can't sleep.

already gone...

when all I asked for was to care. ):

:) :) :) :) :)


I'm a happy boy, and no one is gonna make me otherwise.

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Mon: Studied. Talked with Ho Chwin. Played Poker!
Tue: Studied. Went Mich's place for a while. Dinner at Buangkok.
Wed: Studied. Went American Club to (you guessed it) study.

1030-2030: STUDY. Rah. Really, satisfying. :)

Just went through powerpoint slides. Seem to understand everything so yay!

SYTYCD IS AWESOME. GO WATCH LAST WEEK'S ROUTINES!!

Tired! Wanna sleep, but MAYBE, just maybe I'll study (: (:

don't call my name, don't call my name, Alejandro.

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productivity ftw.

Today was a total non-study day. Just had so many to do. One after another.

Washed the car in the morning, painted the corridor walls for a bit, cleaned out the room (fell asleep while doing it) and watched Cruel Intentions (like finally).

I didn't wanna watch 2012 but my parents insisted I followed so we went to watch the 2320 show with my entire family (yes my dad, my mum, me, my brothers, my sister and my maid all went). Fell asleep halfway, or rather, three quarter way. Too. tired.

The movie was alright I guess. Wasn't as convincing as I thought it was gonna be.

Ended at about 2AM. (cue: '2am and she calls me cos I'm still awake, can u help me unrevel my latest mistake?')
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what if (the world ended/ I were to die) in 2012?

a. Quit Med School
b. Start Working
c. Learn Arabic
d. Hafal Al-Quran
e. Hopefully be able to do my Hajj in the next few years
f. Spend every weekend with my family
g. Meet every one of my friends who meet so much to me and tell them how much they have meant to me
h. Read all the books I never managed to read
i. Travel
j. Learn to appreciate my p's, hope to be closer to them and bersyukur for them.

How escapist. Till 2012 phenomena is confirmed:

a. Read Guyton for Blood and Respi
b. Read Gray's Anatomy
c. Costanzo Review and Cases
d. Silverthorn for Cardiovascular and Renal
e. Rhodes and Bell for Respi also

Yay. Mugging.

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I need to start studying again tomorrow. Oh, and my shelf is a bit in a mess so that may need a bit of tidying up to do. And the ethics tutorial which is due on Monday. Sheesh.

So tired. Better sleep soon.

Good night world.

Oh. AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHUAN YI! YOUR OG IS AWESOME! (: AND I THINK - IS A VERY SWEET PERSON (: (:

I feel so dumb.

I'm putting in the effort, can I at least see IMPROVEMENT?

 I'm gonna start locking entries soon.

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1. People should just STOP pretending to know how things feel like.
2. I should stop being so considerate.
3. Have to learn to assert my own interests in life.
4. Studies should only be a subset of my life. It shouldn't be mutually exclusive from life either.
5. STOP thinking too much.
6. I need to be selective about people I make friends with.
7. Clothes are becoming very re-used. More, please.
8. Exercise seems to have been excised from my existence. Come back please.
9. Need to realise some greater dreams of mine.
10. Live your life well. Cliche, but yes indeed, live your life well.
11. I wanna run away from so many things.
12. Some friends are born nice, some achieve niceness, and some have niceness masked on them. (Ok, this was totally ripped but changed (such a failure indeed) from Twelfth Night.)

After all these, I'm still grateful that bad things happen. I don't regret a single part of my life. Perfect people with everything don't exactly lead the best lives. They don't know what life means. What is the meaning to achieve something from nothing. To get somewhere from nowhere. To be someone from no one.
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That's all.

I'm not a bitch. I'm just plain honest.

This post was directed to NO ONE in particular. It's just a complete review of my own life. MY OWN.
 
And Zhuan Yi, I think the FB thingy is cute! (: Ho Chwin was very scared of it though! Haha.

Seriously, who are you kidding?

I'm happy the way I am. So I don't need any companions in the journey of solitude. I know you guys don't know how it feels so STOP PRETENDING to sympathise.

Please.

I'll appreciate the friendship more.

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SILVERTHORN! (:

HAHA I FAILED MY DRIVING TEST. LIKE A JOKE. I shan't share why though. It's too... CHUI. But it's ok. My mum's SLIGHTLY affected though </3

Shariff, you oughta stop playing. No more Gaga this week.

...

Ok FINE, LESS of it.

And people, I've finally come to the conclusion that Baby Guyton is pretty useless. It's Guyton or no Guyton. I'm up for no Guyton. =D

Study time! (I'm very irritated with the schedule the next few weeks!) =X Not much time to revise. I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME!! =O

Kill the world. Make it a badder place.

finally completed cardio! (: (:

though I doubt everything retained. at least I understood la.

I'm kinda upset that I've been giving up bonding/socialising/fun/nothingness opportunities to m--. But I guess that's what is expected./shrugs

Wanted to go school to study today but decided to go AMK hub instead 'cause I was too lazy to take MRT in the morning. So it was either Bugis or AMK. It would have taken me forever to go Bugis with bus number 2 so there you go bus 24 to AMK.

Studied a fair bit, surprisingly. Skipped lunch and went for driving. After driving ended, I was so desperate to eat so I rushed home.

Yay, Shark's Fin Soup and 'dunno what noodles'. Ate leftover from lunch also. Bleh. I'm gonna be fat.

Sad that I didn't go Barker Carnival. And not watch a movie. ):

Driving Test on Monday! Siao. I have to be down at Bukit Batok Driving Centre by 7 O: so that I can get the circuit. 2 hour break from 830 to 1030. and tadah! Test at 11.

Next week should have been more free! ): Now I have something EVERYDAY. I'm sad.

Oh and heard funny things happened during PPPP last night. SOME people got wasted. hahaha.

Ok thats all for your people.

Always On Your Side - Sheryl Crow

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But your demons and your angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought you'd be
Leavin' me with no place left to go from here
Leavin' me so many questions all these years

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are we left to wonder, all alone, eternally
But is this how it's really meant to be
No is it how it's really meant to be

Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side

 i should have been an animal doctor. a vet. 

I love LJ. 

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Today was VERY tiring. Problem is, I didn't do much. I didn't go for lecture again this morning because when I woke up @ 6 in the morning I felt as if I just lifted a boulder across oceans. I finally decided to get up at bout 10.30pm because I had to go school for an OCIP meeting at 1.45pm (which I might add is a freaking waste of time.)

Had a mini-meeting with the Education Committee. Discussed about stuff and left for City Hall to do a bit of studying. Tutored for the very last time. Mathematics Paper 2 tomorrow. So was chionging Statistics, mainly Correlation & Regression.

That was all for my day. The thing is, I slept EVERYWHERE I went today. Even during tutoring, I felt  so tired that I couldn't reply process the understanding.

And yeah, I decided to be more studious. It's only right that I do it since I am after all in Medicine. Not living my dream to be an entertainer. But theirs. 

Maybe one day I'll see it as mine.

No matter, I am still going to be of better studious value than currently am. Hell to social life. And friends who don't deserve the title.

I'm very upset I can't go for the PPPP tomorrow. But I know that I should be in the airport to send Gugi off. Since it's been some time that we have been under one roof.

I'm gonna take shower. And do a bit of studying.

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I'm disabling MSN and Skype status. I'm usually on Appear Offline. SMS me if anything.