Fun Fact of the Day: I ATTENDED EVERY SINGLE LESSON (LECTURE AND TUTORIAL) THIS WEEK

Had only Metabolism Lecture on Amino Acids today because I had no tutorials. So I sat with Sean Ong and Xian Ying who were like my tutorial mates for a while. 

Walked to Dover (it's such a short walk, ahhhhh, I need to move into my grandma's house soon) to get a haircut. HAIRDRESSER'S PRICE HIKE. CNY SEASON >< 14 dollars. Bleh. Took a bus to Holland V Mosque after that.

Went to (secret place) to meet up with michelle, amanda and hannah. Really enjoyed our conversations, super hilarious! (: 

After that was OT3 @ ACJC! (after dinner too of course) Met up with the rest of the OG people to sit.

OT3 was super GOOD! (: I <3'd it. I mean, I would have loved to be in the cast but yeah, I'm good, but I'm proud of our Faculty.

Familiar Faces: Mayank, Ziwei, Praba, Huishan, Evelyn, Judith, Cheryl!

Musicians! dom, annthea, eunice, vivian, jacklyn (got a lot more but too many to remember, sorry!)

But it was definitely worth the time. Been so long since I last had a good Friday feeling. (:

Azyan drove me back home again. With Lubna and Dhilshad of course. NIce of her to be dropping me @ my house directly the past few times. And for her other friends too. (:

And Dhil, if you're reading this, hats down and full salutations to you Miss Pres. I'll definitely vote you to be Prime Minister of Singapore if you ever run (not that my vote matters HEH!) But really, you're an awesome woman sustaining the pillar of justice! 

Gonna be a tiring weekend at Changi Exhibition Centre. Better sleep soon. ZzzzzZzzz.

 I was going to embark on studies. But I thought I'd put some update on my life for the moment.

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Firstly, I'm more or less over my CA2 results. Yeah, it took me about a few days to recover from the shock and the disappointment. I'm just starting a whole new way to study. And I'm not gonna dictate that my way would be the best way to do things (professionally or anything else) but I think the biggest priority for the moment is how I'm gonna spend my June Holidays. And I'm not gonna take Supps. So I'm just gonna do things the most effective way. And, attending lectures which I'm semi-awake for, or even, fully awake with nothing registering in, is definitely a waste of time. I know many people won't agree with me, but I do. Webcast allows assimilation and understanding to process.

Secondly, I'm very sorry to whoever friends who I really can't seem to find time to catch up with. I really, really am short of time. There are just some things which I don't think I should even be involved with, but some things are easier avoided than escaped. Enough said.

Thirdly, I'm really upset with the dates that YEP has decided to go for the trip. I was very very sad. But I know that my reason is too personal and too selfish to inconvenience everyone else so I didn't really voice it out. Well, someone had to sacrifice something. It's matter of how much.

Fourthly, (I don't know whether I should be doing this through my blog 'cause I don't really whether u read it anymore) but I really hope we can be friends as we used to be before things got weird and awkward. I know I made things awkward and weird after well, my failed attempt to become 'BETTER' friends. Even if it can't happen fast enough, let's just hope that things will be better and less awkward. Like normal friends.

Fifthly, my life is basically, YEP, Simulator Patient Sessions, School, Helping Parents in Office, MedLaw Item, FOC. Minus the parents part, everything in school. And of course, 'The Library'.

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Exhausted. Schedule Today: 

1. Lectures till 1030
2. Anat Practical from 11-12
3. Anat Tutorial from 1-3
4. MedLaw Item Rehearsal from 3-6
5. YEP Meeting from 6-10

I'm really so tired. And I still have so much to do. >< Well, I gotta say they were all very fun. YEP Meetings are now more fun AND funny. MedLaw, well, it's super tiring. But really fun and interesting. Too bad I won't be able to do - ><

Oh well, I need to do my work.

 YAY GETTING A RIDE TO SCHOOL.

THANKS AZYAN 

Just Reached Home.

MANNNN. I've been in school till so late everyday. (10 PLUS, AHHHHH)

I'm lucky to be driven around the past few days though. Except Monday, when I reached home at 1130pm O:

Tuesday, Azyan's dad sent me all the way back!
Wednesday, parents fetched me at about 10.30!
Today, (Thursday) Jon Han dropped me off at Aljunied/Paya Lebar area so wasn't too long a journey back.

Aite, gonna shower. And MAYBE read Carb Metab.

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sugar for the eyes. XD

I hope you get the message.

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I should be SLEEPING it's 2AM! But I thought I really should blog about my rat experience. Heh.

When I was using the computer yesterday at about 2am, I saw some rat/mouse-looking creature run across my room and I was like 'WWHATTTT!!!' Ok fine, natural reaction, I pulled my legs up to the level of my chair. After a few, ermmm, minutes, I decide to brave up and look for the thing towards the windows, where it headed to. Then I figured, it seems a bit impossible to be a mouse/rat in my room. So I couldn't find it, thus dismissed matter. A few minutes later, AHHHHHH! Oh my gosh. It appeared again. :S

This morning, RIGHT after prayers. My brothers were like 'ABANG! DID YOU SEE THAT?' and of course they weren't focused in their prayers -.- (they could tell me which part of the prayers the rat/mouse/HUGE INSECT (according to my brother) appeared). AND, my maid saw it running in circles in her toilet. And shat all over the toilet floor.

After a WHOLE day helping out my dad in the office (which means 'Project Complete GIT before Metab Starts': FAILED, just like my - - -) my MUM saw the rat. AHHHHHHHH. Confirm. CONFIRMED RAT.

And while I was tapping on my brother to sleep, MY MAID SCREAMED.

AHHHHH!!! BEHIND PIANO BEHIND PIANO BEHIND PIANO.

HAHAHAHA. I left my bro. Who cried out of shock 'cause of my maid screaming (come on it was 1AM) and then I told my 13 year old bro to take one side of the piano while I took the other. Well, I was directly BESIDE the piano while my bro was looking at it from like, errr, 2 metres away. Awesome. Thing escaped. AND ENTERED MY PANTS!!!! AHHHHHHH!!! hahaha. though the feeling was a bit weird. :S

Well it decided to leave my pants. And WHAM! my dad hit it with a pole. Good night, little rattie.

And yeah I double-wrapped it and finally everyone has gone to sleep.

Except me of course. Who hasn't showered, eaten dinner, packed my stuff etc.

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I just wanna say thanks to everyone who tried to cheer me up (: (: , directly AND indirectly. Subtly or ermm, explicitly. I appreciate it (:

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I'm the welfare officer for the Youth Expedition Project! YIPPEE. So fun. Got my first choice. Grateful that I didn't end up as ermmm... something else. heh. Thanks Wani.

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I just haven't met you yet (:

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I REALLY WANT A PAIR OF LADY GAGA HEARTBEATS EARPHONES ): ): but it's freakin' ex. S$240.00!!!!

YOU'LL BE MY NEW BEST FRIEND IF YOU GET THAT FOR ME (: (:

haha how superficial of me XD

 was blog-hopping for a while. like, from friends of friends. and friends of them, etc. though, they were mostly Med people.

Sunday morning, so early for that matter, and I'm up. I want to well, start on today's voyage already, to, well, most of you would have already guessed. Studying.

Then, I remembered, I saw a huge ass creature running around my room yesterday. And maybe I should exterminate whatever it is. But my siblings are ridiculously unaffected. So, well, they have gone back to sleep.

Ok, enough blogging.

it's now or never.

Okay fine.

I failed my CA2. Was going to keep it, well, to myself. But I guess there's no point.

Locking my phone and not signing in to MSN.

Hope that helps.

And stop BOTHERING me.

Love <3

Zhuannie's supposedly prank email was right.

But, it was. Apparently.

It just, puzzles me...

waiting outside LT29 for my grandparents who are picking me up.

The past weekend was partly fun and partly, well, to put it bluntly, screwed up.

Had to wake up pretty early on Saturday morning for the NHS Training. Learnt how to take BP and use gluconometer.

Had the Night Cycling on Saturday night. Met up with a lot of familiar faces. Supposed to be a medic, though the group of us medics hardly did any medic related things. Cycled with Dhil and her sister and her brother. They are a very funny bunch. And I can see they are very close and all, which I really loved about them.

Cycled from abt 10pm to about 5am. From Marine Parade to Kallang Indoor Stadium to Fort Canning Park, up & down the slope on Fort Canning, to Sultan Mosque and back to East Coast Park. Quite fun I guess. I don't really cycle that often, like, really. So it was quite an experience cycling like that, with so many near-misses.

Came home and yeah, the screwed up part begins.

I was trying to find some lyrics that fit my feelings at that point of time, but I'll pass.

Sunday, was, screwed up.

Today was just school. Had clinicals. Really interesting stuff today. It makes me feel slightly more motivated to do Paeds actually.

Tried to study in school till now. Though failed epicly. I still need to do up the stuff I need to research for tomorrow's YEP meeting.


Sometimes, some things should just be kept to yourself. EC-ing is good. As opposed to liking someone, which requires so many factors such as person's character etc. Whatever. The best part is no one really knows. And you can have a normal conversation and stuff, and the other party doesn't know. XD and guess what, people, no one, and I mean NO ONE, NO ONE, NO ONE will know who it is. 'Cos I bloody well will shut. And no one will be able to guess it.

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I'm glad that at least now, I'm not as negative about myself being a doctor. Studying isn't so bad after all. It's just that I haven't been seeking His guidance, which was a real regret. But it's such an easy mistake to make.

'suddenly I see, this is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see, why the hell it means so much to me'

It's not what you think XD

I was having Random Stunts Day and was base for:
-Grace Huang
-Zhuan Yi
-Cheryl Lee
-Nicole Cheung

So basically based for 4 people. Gotta admit, it was SUPER TIRING. But I guess it's mainly because of the way I was doing it, like the technique wasn't proper. Hope to improve with time. Damian is seriously a very nice and encouraging person. I seriously think it's really fun. (: Oh, and Vanessa SCREAMING was just.... HER XD XD XD

RUSHEDDDDDD DOWN for YEP Meeting. And I was like, OMG. Am I the only guy in the committee. Well, apparently not 'cause the other TWO (AND ONLY TWO OUT OF NINETEEN OTHERS) were not free, I guess.

Then hitched a ride on the cab that Lubna was taking to City Hall. Then I took a train down to Kembangan to attend the class at Faith Hub that was recommended. I gotta admit, it was a bit weird when I entered 'cause... I was the second person to arrive in the class. But the people there are nice. And the class is rather interesting. Only problem is I didn't bring a proper translated text today. :S  At the end of class, this really nice person gave me his namecard and some books to share and read. He talked to me for so long about Practical Islam in Daily Usage. And the teacher actually baked some bread for us! I felt so welcomed in the environment! (:

Well, I was happy I ponned school again today. Though I didn't really study much this time around. After Friday prayers, I was basically just running from here to there and everywhere. The OG Lunch was, well, a start to something, I guess? They ate at some restaurant. Wasn't really hungry so I didn't eat. But they ate at some restaurant which wasn't Halal so Shima didn't eat :/ The cake from 'Awfully Chocolate', was ok only la.

Actually, I don't really like going out to eat at restaurants/places with non-Muslim friends 'cause I feel super guilty limiting their food choices. Sigh.

Tiring day just passed. Tiring day ahead. NHS Training and Medic for tomorrow night's Night Cycling by NUSMS.

I need to start Physio. GAHH.

And oh, actually I was gonna complain about how tired and jaded I was. And how I got myself into so much mess. Like so much adhoc stuff, not already counting in my academic workload. But then, I read Zhuan Yi's blog, and she sounded so happy. And I realised I need to be more positive towards things too. Enjoy doing all these stuff while I can 'cause despite being super tiring and time-consuming, it gives greater rewards than just plain mugging and socialising (for the sake of it). (:

Peace and out! XD

the day, door's closed,
the echoes fill your soul,
they won't say which way to go,
just trust your heart,
to find what you're here for,
open another door,
but I'm not sure anymore,
it's just so hard.

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I think I'm sustaining much better with school this time around as compared to previous semester. Then again, it's still too early to judge. But at least I more or less understand what's going on. Gonna be a pretty busy weekend. :S

Got tutorial later, though I really feel like ponning. Maybe I shouldn't have done my tutorial, so I feel more compelled to attend tutorial. Then after that we are having OG Lunch to celebrate -, -, - and -'s -days.

Then going for Random Stunts Day, YEP Meeting and gonna rush down to Changi Road for some class. Sad that I am gonna skip prawning though.

Tomorrow is gonna be tiring too ><

Well at least yesterday was good no-school-but-accomplish-a-lot day. Well, to me at least.

final day before semester 2 starts.

I'm starting to miss 2009 already. Like a lot.

It was the year:
-I learnt the true meaning of fellowship.
-I gained AND lost personal freedom.
-I got enlisted into NS.
-I wanted to go OCS, but couldn't.
-I got my A Level results.
-I saw myself in the papers.
-I became a Military Policeman.
-I could do 12 pull ups (before it went back down)
-I finally, realistically saw myself as a doctor.
-I first c----ed and p---ed. And never again.
-I was disrupted from NS.
-I met so many different people.
-I meet future colleagues and awesome new people.
-I meet people who see social life in textbooks.
-I felt stupider and super dumb than ever before.
-I got my first first-hand iPod as a gift.
-I actually got gifts for my birthday, from friends.
-I met someone who fitted the criteria. Minus one.
-I first cried because of the 'crazy little thing...'.
-I learnt to pick myself up.
-I learnt to be patient.
-I finally refused to change who I am.
-I studied more than ever in my life, but still registering nothing.
-I failed my driving test. With 34 demerits and 3 immediates.
-I went for an OCIP to experience fellowship and experience.
-I witnessed bereavement of a child less than 3 hrs old. My cousin.
-I see improvements in family ties.
-I become numb to scoldings.

And it's also the year I've been depriving sleep.

Thus, my new year resolution: adopt a regular sleep patterm.

Driving lesson in the morning. Boring. Ready for it. Bring it on.

PICNIC with RANDOM FRIENDS: ZHUAN YI , YI BING, HO CHWIN, MICHELLE!!!! SO FUN!!! We crashed into St Pat's and took photos after shopping at Carrefour! FUN FUN FUN! Then we sat down and talked @ East Coast Park. Food was nice!!! (: (: We didn't cycle in the end though.

Then BBQ at James's! Not bad! Quite nice! And Wii was fun! Bad @ table tennis though. HAHA.

awesome week indeed.

OH AND I GOT INTO THE YOUTH EXPEDITION PROJECT COMMITTEE FOR THIS COMING JUNE! WOOHOO! (:

and, dont worry abt the email. Don't be too scared by my reactions, I wasn't THAT affected (:

Few more days before we start hitting the books. Been pretty busy meeting people. BUT IT'S BEEN FUN.

Yesterday, (Wednesday) went to HV to sit at Starbucks while using the computer in the morning. Then saw Timotheus and he decided to sit with me while he was reading his book. We sat for about 3-4 hours together, though we were doing our own things. Really hope he could get into Medicine. I'm sure he deserves it even more than I do.

Oh, and I saw BEVERLY ANG yesterday at Starbucks also! That was the second time I saw her since she was back from US. Though both were just coincidental. Didn't really plan anything this time. Really missed her loads! <3 Talked a bit while we were there.

Then finally met Shauntel for lunch. (main itinery for the day) Talked a lot, as usual. And yes, I finally know what's going on. (: Had Gelato Ice Cream from Swensen's afterwards... which sucked...

After she left, met Irna and Syahidah for dinner and movie: Alvin & the Chipmunks! Very cute indeed! (: (:

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TODAY WAS FUN!!! PRAWNING IS FUN!! (but I still hate eating them.)

Turnout wasn't that good. As always, that's OG12 for you. Vanessa, Alex, Dax, Wench and Annthea! Not a very common group, but fun nonetheless.

We caught quite a number of prawns. (combined effort) Didn't like how they tasted though. Left a really icky feeling for a long time. I was the only affected one though.

Michelle joined us when we were done with the prawning though she really wanted to prawn with us BUT TOO BAD, woke up TOO late. She joined us for the BBQ-ing though!

Went AMK Hub for lunch at the foodcourt where Ernest joined us.

Wanted to watch movie. But no one else wanted to... so, oh well. Went to Zone X to play Bishi Bashi! WHICH IS HILARIOUS. I always loved playing that.

Then Dax, Mich, Ern and I went NTUC walk walk for Dax's dinner ingredients. After Dax left, we just sat and nua'd for a bit.

Then on the bus back home, made a spontaneous decision to meet Guan Sen! Woohoo. Then Jobina joined. Awesome talk rubbish session!

Really enjoyed myself trying to make Jobina believe things that aren't real. (: (:

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Wanted to share about the stupid email, but shall just post the screenshot here.

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Tomorrow will be exciting!!! (: (:

I'm so tired! Really lacking sleep! ): ):

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After my blog post yesterday, Miss Foo Li Jen (NICOLE!!!!!) came on time and we had Popeye's for breakfast.

"...... biscuit currently out of stock..."

HAHA. Then her friends came and I made friends with them! And then she left! TAKE CARE NIC!

After all that, met Ernest in town and ate Ramen Ten! We walked to Somerset to check out the shops around the area. Then Mich joined us and we sat around at Coffee Bean to chill!

Quite a relaxing and calm day. (:

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Last night, after I came back and entertained my relatives who came over before my uncle leaves today, I was talking to Cassandra at about 2am. And she was like, 'eh shariff organise outing for tomorrow!' Haha so I mass sms'd all to meet today at 1.30 if they were free!!! woohoooo!

Before meeting them, I went J Co at Bugis to eat Yoghurt Ice Cream! It's super nice. And I talked to Nic on Skype for quite a bit! Then headed to school for the YEP Interview which I think went fairly well! (: (:

Response for the outing wasn't REALLY good. Cass, Amos, Lynette and I met at Buona Vista at 1.30 and we left for Haw Par Villa. Nothing much there except sweat and grime and a lot of heat. The ten courts of hell were interesting though!

Went Vivo to eat B&J's! Ice cream was really good! Played iPod games and then Sulaiha joined us! Then we walked around and eventually decided to watch Sherlock Holmes! IT WAS AN AWESOME MOVIE I LOVED IT LOVED IT LOVED IT! Haha.

I was confused and half the time I wanted to spam Su with questions about the show but I just shut up. The good thing is, as confusing as it is, and twisted, at the end of it everything is cleared and you understand everything! Such an awesome show, better than 'the blue people' I think. Haha, reminds me of Judith who is racist to the the 'blue people'. XP

Had dinner afterward! Saw Sabby and then Felicia joined to sit with us!

Today was a tiring day! BAH.

OH OH. By the way, today I lost balance and fell flat on the bus floor. Stupid bag was too heavy and make me imbalance CG. Shouldn't be bringing my Gray's around when I don't even use it.

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Meeting Shauntel tomorrow. Thurs and Fri will be exciting too! (: (:

Hello Friends!

Been a really tiring week! And it's Monday again! The last week before school re-opens. School doesn't seem to appeal to me as it used to in the past during school holidays. Studying in Med is just so exhausting. D:

Anyway, been helping my parents out in the office and at home. Haven't gone out to meet friends or do anything fun since meeting Chwin on Wednesday. Felt so utterly bored. I had to cancel quite a few gatherings with my friends and pull out from others 'cos I know, that I need to be where I'm supposed to be, I guess.

Helped my parents packing the office a few days last week together with a few admin stuff. Oh and we built the gate using the steel frame and the wooden planks. Dang, it's really, really tough drilling through steel. Man, so bloody tiring that I fell asleep on Saturday night the moment I laid on the bed.

This last week, I'm intending to do the last onslaught of activities before I eventually start another crazy semester filled with rapidly-dishing curriculum. Anyway, I can't nua too much or I'll just lose the motivation. May pick up something to read up on or catch up on this week. Actually, as I'm speaking, I have Gray's on my lap as base for my laptop. But what happened to my biochem revision??? Gone. Maybe taking Supps for Paper 1 only isn't so bad....  But then again, do I wanna do that? I totally hate Sem 1 IHD Biochem.

Well, I'm waiting for Miss Foo who SAID she will be here in app. 6 minutes which is 10AM. Haha.

Till next time, TOODLES.

ho chwin is a nice weeetarded fren to have. Hahaha.

Woke up at abt 6. Then at abt 8 plus my maid passed me an envelope!!! Had my name and the address! Tadah! Xmas card from Jobeeeeena. Was very happy to read the letter!! So nice of her. (:

Met Ho Chwin for lunchhh! Oh and I found out that he stays in the same condo that Keith Tan used to stay in! Haha coincidental.

Watched I Love Beth Cooper. Quite a stupid movie. Didnt watch finish cos it was too annoying. And I was really severly lacking sleep. So I slept while mr chwin played computer games. Haha.

Good day I feel! (:

2010 is approaching!!! Beware.

 been pretty bored since OCIP ended. went out a bit here and there.

yesterday, met the BMT dudes Wesley, Mao Hui, Calvin and Ben Kang. Quite a pathetic turnout I would say. After that, met up with the OCIP crew for a while. Like seriously, ONLY A WHILE. Before my mum called me to go home. -.-

Spent the entire day today at my parents' office helping them in the packing of stuff and all. and helped my dad do some admin stuff, on his comp. data transfer and all. went home and cleaned up my room. at least now my files and books are in order. was working out my calendar and stuff also.

I went to sign up for some Clinical Skills Foundation Course body hiring thingy. Haha, free money! And I don't mind seeing what they do anyway.

Meeting chwin tomorrow for lunch and stuff!

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I realised that it becomes more of a chore trying to keep ALL your friends together, like by having gatherings so often. What's most important is that you cherish them no matter whether you meet them or not. I mean, the closer ones, there is more to it than just mere gathering la I guess. 

It's just that I realised, during some group outings/gatherings, people tend to have awkward silence waiting for SOMEONE to say something. Which is damn weird, honestly. Maybe, it should be more of group activities than group gatherings and outings, cos we'll run out of things to talk about for sure.

But, it's also maybe because I've become more indifferent to the world. Couldn't care less about what happens in other people's lives. This is unbecoming of a physician. : /

Or maybe, the physician-to-be status is making me like this.

Bloody. How apt, I'm being bitten by mosquitoes now. Stupid mozzies. So irritated by them. And the pond at the porch stinks. Don't know why my family wants to keep fishes. Smells like crap. Almost puked into the pond just now.

My heart is now an empty room. Feels much better that way actually.

I've had so much to blog since the last post. But I'm lazy. Blah.

Been trying to enjoy holidays. But feeling like a captive definitely doesn't really help in this.

I wanna go OUT. I wanna WATCH TV. Not be stuck at home and being told what to do 24/7!!!!

BLAHHHHHH.